SO here I am just sitting here bord and alone, So I guess I will use my account for once lol. It is odd when you think about it (It being my need for fellowship) I think back to when I was younger in middle school and such and how I didnt really have or need friends but now I find myself wanting in this area. I know God created us to be social beings but it is odd how if never introduced to things of a social nature you never really feel the need for it then once imersed in this sensation of human experiance you crave it and not only "it" in genreal but all forms of "it" from friends to lovers. I have been hanging out with Troy and his friends and it has been very ejoyable to meet new people I just wish I would have been more sociable when I was a child I find it difficult meeting new people I usally try to ask brod questions to get them to do most of the talking (sometime its backfires in such a way that leaves me rambling like a moron). If you know me well you know of my difficulties in school and my EH and all that jazz. I guess that is what made me reject my social side I knew (Well I was conviced) that I was insuperiar to my fellow classmates I would sit in class and watch there eager young minds absorb all that the teacher could give and to me it didnt click. I remember a test on State capitals once in middle school and everyone just blow through it and for the life of me I could not remeber so I cheated I know the teacher saw me do it but he allowed it I dont think I have ever felt as worthless as I did that day. Oh well I cant change the past but only use it to improve the future. I guess what brought this all on was I went out after a bible study and the group I wanted to join was sitting behind me and on one side was sports talk (which I know almost nothing about) and the other politics (enough said about that lol) so I just kinda sat there looking at the wall, dont get me wrong everyone there are awesome people but I know the people behind me better then the others plue there was someone there I would like to know better (Guess will have to try better) Well if this made sence to you ( the reader...ofcourse the reader I mean come on havent you ever read something like that before To the reader OFCOURSE its to the reader how in the wide wide world of sports would you know of it if you where not reading it I mean come on throw me a freakin bone here do you really think your readers are that slow that they wont catch on that its to them.....*sigh* ok I am going to go read some of my book and the off to bed) Well thank you for reading some of my thoughts.
-John

Wow its been like 11-inty million years since I used this thing but hey you know how it goes oh yeah had a good time lastnight hanging with friends and hopfuly making new ones HOORAY BEER!

Earlier (about 2:30am) I was watching the Shootist a John Wayne movie, I got to thinking about him and other american heros like how come he has to never reload his gun I have seen him shoot 50 shoots from a gun that only holds 6 shots, or like if Superman is bullet proof why does he flinch when you throw the gun at him (earlyer tv shows) and whos crazy idea was it to put nipples on the bat-suit I mean come on its batman he dont have nipples on the suit LOL ahhhhhh the wonders of poor sleep and a creative mind

If guns kill people, then pens are too blame for poor spelling

You're Borg! Organized and efficient, you love to

have everything your way.


What Star Trek Race Are You?
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In 7 to 8 weeks I will have a Passport. After 150$ (for a stamp that says US citizen) and 3 pictures later I can or I should say will be able to see the world well the nice parts of it anyhow I mean who wants to see africa sure there are jungles and big man eaten animals oh and the bugs will eat you too and viruses that will turn you inside out and a different war lord leader every week. But that aint my cup of tea. Now the Bahamas that is my cup of tea I can do Rome, Ireland, Spain, maybe france, Greece, ummmmm Russia would be cool maybe China but the card carrying commi thing is a lil turn off since they lock people like me up and it aint the good prisons on the movie channel. well im out of here

In 7 to 8 weeks I will have a Passport. After 150$ (for a stamp that says US citizen) and 3 pictures later I can or I should say will be able to see the world well the nice parts of it anyhow I mean who wants to see africa sure there are jungles and big man eatting animals oh and the bugs will eat you too and viruses that will turn you inside out and a diffrent war lord leader every week. But that aint my cup of tea. Now the Bahamas that is my cup of tea I can do Rome, Ireland, Spain, mybe france, Greece, ummmmm Russia would be cool maybe China but the card carrying commi thing is a lil turn off since they lock people like me up and it aint the good prisons on the movie channel. well im out of here

Looks like you have managed to get into Heaven!

CONGRADULATIONS!!! Let's hope there is a

Heaven to get into and all will be grand.

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Are you going to Heaven or Hell?
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I have been thinking, if you ever travel to or have read books about third world country's that speak of the spiritual state demon possession is a some what common thing, But when you look at the modern country's such as ours we have named this phenomenon "Mental Illness". We say take this pill and it will aid you in living a normal life now let me make something clear I support medical aid and treatment God has given us the mind to make medicine to help in healing both the mind and the body the things of what I speak are people who must live in a institute for the rest of there life because if they stop the drugs they will become and dangerous element to the world around them and then there are some who the drugs don't even help they are kept in a state of "Vegetation". I know some of you are thinking "But there is proof that it is a mental illness you have brain scans and such, it has nothing to do with demons and to you I offer this if you look out the window a see a tree moving it don't mean the tree is moving its self but there is a unseen force moving it the wind now what if the abnormal brain scan we see is a result of a unseen force doing its work .I don't know about you but I am a firm believer that man is surrounded by a whole world of things we cant see and cant fully comprehend. I hate to think that we are becoming a people that are so blind and self centered that we think we can fix any and all problems with are Science and are great minds for when we fully believe that, I do believe we will give birth to our own downfall. Well thank you for letting me share my thoughts.

"For it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all"

I think that is a crook, ok think there are diffrent levels of love and I have only bee on the first few but man even with that lil I get lonly and all bummed when I see onthers in love its like "man I was there once and know im alone" so to that statement I say NAY for how can you hurt for something you have never had.